Got to do!
Here I am. In a strange phase of my life. Some may say, it is the most inportant phase of my life. Some may say it is the most difficult phase. For some, I am finally a doctor!!! For some, the journey has just begun. For some, I'm on the foothills of a great life. While some say, If I dont do well, my life will be a mess.
And....it are all true in some way.
If only I can convince myself about any of those. I m living like a damn vegetable, if you ask me. Apart from the fact that vegetables are of some use to someone!! I do try to study but the attempts r so few and far between that it is an insult to the exam. And as I dont like insulting anyone, I just close the book. :P
Adding to that is the unbearable guilt of not earning and asking parents for so much money for the exam. And so many friends calling me to join salsa classes which costs a bomb..and they are having fun there and I, being the best dancer in the first level have resisted the temptation till now for over 6 months now...and I want to..but its so damn difficult!!! :^(( .Pray that I have it in me to resist the temptation.
Ok so now I've decided, something's gotta change. I can't let it go on like this. I don't have a direction. I don't feel the need. I don't feel anything for that matter except for a few moments and then I am back to choosing which vegetable to become.
So enough is enough. I am joining a library. And I am gonna study. Atleast looking at my fellow comrades who are wearing those books down by the minute will let me get into some sort of seriousness. It's ok if it's not comfortable. It's ok that I like lying around and watching TV rather than sitting whole day cramming books. It's ok if for each passing minute, it won't be what I would want to do. But I've got to do what I've got to do. And although it's the wrong time of the year..I'd like to make this resolution as much as I am scared of making it now.
P.S Will keep you updated on how I am doing....as if u r interested :P .
And....it are all true in some way.
If only I can convince myself about any of those. I m living like a damn vegetable, if you ask me. Apart from the fact that vegetables are of some use to someone!! I do try to study but the attempts r so few and far between that it is an insult to the exam. And as I dont like insulting anyone, I just close the book. :P
Adding to that is the unbearable guilt of not earning and asking parents for so much money for the exam. And so many friends calling me to join salsa classes which costs a bomb..and they are having fun there and I, being the best dancer in the first level have resisted the temptation till now for over 6 months now...and I want to..but its so damn difficult!!! :^(( .Pray that I have it in me to resist the temptation.
Ok so now I've decided, something's gotta change. I can't let it go on like this. I don't have a direction. I don't feel the need. I don't feel anything for that matter except for a few moments and then I am back to choosing which vegetable to become.
So enough is enough. I am joining a library. And I am gonna study. Atleast looking at my fellow comrades who are wearing those books down by the minute will let me get into some sort of seriousness. It's ok if it's not comfortable. It's ok that I like lying around and watching TV rather than sitting whole day cramming books. It's ok if for each passing minute, it won't be what I would want to do. But I've got to do what I've got to do. And although it's the wrong time of the year..I'd like to make this resolution as much as I am scared of making it now.
P.S Will keep you updated on how I am doing....as if u r interested :P .
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There's this theory I give my dad everytime "I'm like this seed, you have to plant, nurture it, transplant, nurture it some more.. and wait for it to start producing fruit. But it WILL produce fruit and then things'll change"
;)
Go ahead!!!
Maybe you should stick by your resolution too, you know bit by bit, one step at at time?
But definitely do the salsa!! If you need any more excuses to join the classes.. ask me! I have a looooooooooong list of them ;P
@macadamia-I know...feel that sometimes..'by the time I have money and time to join the classes I'll be one of the uncles!'
Smart story, will keep it in mind ;P..... but the problem is my own guilt bout spending the money...:(.
@ beauty & d beast-:D...Glad you loved it.
Do you think I need any more excuses to join the classes...I need excuses not to join it!!! Did it have to be salsa lovers who had to read this post???!! ;P
Thnx for dropping by and d comment...:).
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This post made me grin.
How's it going so far, doc? All the very best...
...of the test!
;)
@ solitaire- :)...Well if you really are in the same boat as me, good luck to you dear...coz we would really need it..;)
Ok..will do.
@ ubiquitious-:D:D:D.....I m glad it did that... I call it 'you get what you give'. ;)
I'll let you know..
Thanks...need your wishes....
...to avoid the blushes. :D