Running in my head...

Of dreams and schemes, worlds you've never seen. Forgetting what you know, Discovering new dreams. I think it is me. I know I am free. Grabbing clouds, An eager squeeze. No pain hurts. Sheer bliss, All I feel. Where to head? feet off the green. The music smells sweet. No silence to breathe. Surfing the seas of time, it seems. Of Kings and queens and climbing trees. Living a dream is like falling asleep.

Woke up now Or have I? The harsh light flashed my eye. Where am I?... Where was I?... Who am I?.... Try to see what approaches, a blur it is. Or is it? I am moving, somewhere, somehow. Floating? Scared, Dazed and confused. Try to keep balance. Barely stay. Where's the way, to escape? Don't wanna go on. But the current seems strong. Strength seems gone. Still I hold on. Scared, dazed and confused. Try to scream. A desperate plea. Can you shout, when you can't breathe? See faces, and running feet beneath. But not ears for my screams. Scared, dazed and confused. Try no more. Loosen my grip. Lose my balance. I don't fall. I stand. I float. Scared, dazed and confused. Image courtesy: Flickr (peewee82)

With each spoken word, the music escalates, in intesity and fervour. The anticipation of the climax, the heart knows, the mind dreads. Eyes wander, as if to escape. but then realise, they can't. Words they are, Just words. He reassures himself. As if he can. He falls, crashes without moving. Fingers tighten around the arm rest, as if to the music. It gets too loud, a pandemonium yet, he strains to hear... ..the Silence. Image courtesy: Flickr

Life without you, I cant imagine. What you mean to me I cannot express. Not only are you special, but coz of you life is special love is special. Don't know why you came in my life what role you were here to play But someone up there loved me too much. It must be magic, surely coz what we had defies sense. Every tear I shed, Every smile I had, is special coz you were there. You completed my life and gave it a purpose. You gave me a reason to wake up everyday. I don't know when you became family. I don't know when you became my life. Something somewhere did go wrong, but still looking ahead at life without you it's a dark hollow. It is living, without a life.

You're so beautiful it hurts. and yet strangely it soothes. You're so perfect, you make me see the imperfections in the rest of us. You're so beautiful that when I see you I want the moment to go on forever, just so that I can decipher the spell your beauty casts. That moment, I am free yet captured That moment, I am calm yet restless That moment, I am in ecstasy and yet in misery That moment, I am me yet unknown It's amazing how you never cease to amaze me. It's amazing how it never seems to be enough for me. In that moment,my eyes seem like the greatest gift God could give. But still, in that moment,He seems so cruel for giving just two of them. You're so beautiful it hurts. and yet strangely it soothes. Happy birthday.

I am my own man. I live in my own world. I talk with me. I laugh with me. When I wanna hang out, I hang out with me. I argue with me. I discuss with me. I enjoy with me. I celebrate with me. I cry with me. I console me. I seek solace and usually get it, in me. I ask questions. I get the answers, from me. When I do something good, and yearn for attention, I get the praise, from me. I am my own man. I am my own company. I am my own friend, I am there for me. I am own man. I live in my own world. Image courtesy:Flickr

Cheap canes and steel chains won't put me down Coz I am born to grow and grow I will. Small you may think I am and laugh, but I am laughing at you from above. Steel cages and window panes won't put me down coz I am born to fly and fly I will. Captured you may think I am and laugh, But my thoughts are changing the world. Stab wounds and tearing pains won't put me down coz I am born to smile and smile I will. Sad you may think I am and smile, but that smile makes me happy. Cruel prejudice and utter disdain won't put me down coz I am born to love and love I will. Angry you may think I am and laugh, but anger this is not, it's sympathy. Coloured water and spoilt grains won't put me down coz I am born to be strong and strong I will be. Weak you may think I am and laugh, but try testing my will to survive. Shot in my heart and my friends slain won't put me down coz I am born to live and live I will. Dead you may think I am and laugh, but with every death a new me ...

I dream of a life That’s perfect. But as I see it, It’s far from it. This oyster is my world. And not the other way round. Nothing to look forward to. Ordinary is the name. Adjusting to people of all sorts, yet, none of my sort. A struggle to earn, a struggle to belong, to this world. I do not. Where’s the life of freedom? Of amazement and discovery? Where’s the life of love? Of wines and moonlit beaches? Where’s the life of passion? Of excitement and ecstasy? Am I destined for this? Then why do I dream? Why do I believe there’s still a twist in the tale, And hope, this dream will come true? Life, give me a chance… Or at least stop me from dreaming.

Tomorrow is my birthday. I know I should have started the post with a yippee or a hurray... but I just don't feel like it. I am not at all excited about tomorrow as I should be perhaps. I don't even know what am I gonna do tomorrow. May be what I do everyday.... just slouch around the house during the day and then go to the gym in the evening. I don't remember ever actually being too excited about my birthday. I've never really celebrated my birthday too. Part of the reason being that most of my friends would go to their native place for their school vacations. But somehow I just don't feel there's anything special in this day. So what if I was born this day? That's done and over with. I don't have any happy memories about that day, no wait.......ok right I don't. So what would make celebrate it. I don't know. I've never ever been too excited about any presents too. I get stuff all through the year from my parents. And nobody else actually gi...

Just wanna stand on a peak high above the world, with the wind blowing on my face and my hair dancing just wanna stay there all alone the sun settting far away silence all around except the song the wind whispers in my ear nothing to do but stand there and be one with the wind just close my eyes and stand, feel the closeness to the heavens with my feet on the ground the music the wind plays makin me dance with joy. will it be any less than paradise..? i wanna be in paradise

A strange thing happened today. I went to take measurements and surprise of surprises 'everything's reduced' (oh..c'mon..think straight.) For those who don't know I'd started working out for weight gain.I mean i am not skinny, u can say athletic so just wanted to build up some muscle. As far as my mirror goes there's definitely improvement but don't know how come my arms, chest, weight..and even height has apparently reduced(well..the last one could be an error). Frankly it doesn't feel so good after working so hard to not see the results but I'll believe my mirror. Even my trainer doesn't know what's happened. Our theory is that may be it must've been the small amount fat that has gone.But i've to say, I'm looking great!! I am posting this old poem I found. I don't know if u realise how special u make me feel, when u give me that look, those words, that smile. Don't know if u know how much it hurts, when u have to go,...

Lonely in a crowd.. In touch with so many, close to none. A commotion around, still silence to one. I look at the crowd, all are so busy. I try to find myself, But it's not easy. Followed a dream, eyes firmly on it. In the middle of the road, I think I've lost it. None can pierce, this vacuum around me. Let everyone be close, I'll always be free. No answers here, no way around, How long am i gonna be, lonely in the crowd? -copyright pranay

the door seemed closed the air seemed scarce darkness everywhere the world- a farce nothing mattered at all on the bed i would fold the head got heavier and the heart cold talks won't work the damage was done all hopes were gone set was the sun but then,something happened a dream again grew the world so nice the sky so blue as though by magic the pain disappeared new thoughts came in the mind was now clear great i realised i could still smile what's been has gone then why should i cry change is life life is change just open ur eyes the sun rises again -PRANONYMOUS