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Am presently near my village. Can't begin to tell u how I found a net connection here. Anyways...we come to the point.
Hoped to get away from the same old monotonous life that had me going nowhere. Had begun feeling as if I was just existing instead of living. Felt like running away. And so I did. But sadly, u can't escape ur thoughts. They came with me here. And so did the obsession I told u about. There seems to be no end to this. I kno thinking about isn't gonna help in any way but i just can't help it. The magic....I want it back. The fantasy I lived..I want it back.But can't get it anymore.Oh..how i miss it! Oh..How I want it!
Stop thinking about it pranay.Just forget it ever happened.
How do i stop these thoughts of mine that race away like a horse without a leash.
How do i stop this mind of mine that just doesn't stop trying to satisfy it's insatiable apetite for happiness.
I can't. I can't.
Hate to say this. Hate to not be able to control my mind.
It's like an addiction. Slowly engulfing all of my senses.
And now I can't stop thinking of the 'would have beens'.
The magic... the magic of innocence, of that cuteness, that naughtiness..... the magic that fits two people together like a puzzle inspite of all the differences.
There. I said it.
Hope I am just able to take my mind off it.
Must say blogging too is pretty damn addicting. Couldn't help searching down a computer to jot down my thoughts.
Damn these addictions..

Comments

tanvi said…
wanting to be happy is only natural you sure can't and shouldn't want to give it up but running after the past won't help you in present. Look for a new beginings not the end. You write with so much passion its infectious. About the template its available on blogspot. My technologically challenged self can never think of making one like Beth.and ya blogging sure is addictibve :-)
11:06 AM
tanvi said…
PS On Beth's blog the friends list was on the previous template it said my friends and it had your name too:-)
1:25 PM
Pranay said…
Thanks tanvi. You make me wanna come back to blog again & again. Thanks 4 ur support. And about being on beth's friends list, :-).
Happy blogging!
1:16 AM
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